100th Day

Today is the 100th day of your death.
Nobody remembers, I'm the only one I guess.
I hope they can treasure your sacrifice like I do.
But you've never be seen.
They somehow couldn't remember how it feels like.

I wish I could hug you and call your name.
I wish I could buy you every toy in the store.
I wish I could bring you to every Disneyland.
I wish I had never let you go.
I'm sorry.

The Dodge

Because of the plainness, sometimes our love will tour away from the warm haven.

Because of the curiosity, sometimes our journey will casually stray away at some crossroads.

The moment when you are going to cast off, you will hear your love weeps.

Sometimes when you asked a question;

The person has been dodging to answer you;

That is when he/she is telling you euphemistically:

You won't want the real answer, it's cruel.

There is no never-changing commitment,

There are never-ending lies.

Shadows of ambiguity

I couldn't tell what am I praying for.
As I exhale rings of puff together with you.
I wanted to say, those dissatisfaction.
How do I capture your affection?
We seem like getting closer but we never touch.
Hovering in bittersweet memories, day by day.
I hesitated, to remain or just shied away.
Ambiguity is a senseless greed.

I couldn't see my own shadows;
Because I'm living in the shadows.

Childhood was wonderful

Leaving childhood, starting to grab my own life.

However, the headstrong and capricious me with uncontrollable impulsive; 

Putting myself into foolish desire over and over again.

I put myself in risk when I fell in love, I thought this is what I sought for.

And I rampaged through misunderstandings and lies.

Is the world of adults always full of hidden flaws?

Everyday I come towards the forks in the road;

How I missed the past with simple little happiness, it was wonderful.

Love causes us to cry, to feel unsatisfied.

The sky is so wide but I couldn't see clearly.

How lonely. 

Betrayal of Trust- Affair

Each betrayal begins with trust.
Trust is fragile.
It can be lost instantly;
Or there is a hysteresis whereby a long-earned trust eroded and then suddenly lost.

The greater trust that you had put in a person,
The greater impact the betrayal has on you.

Betrayal is about learning not to idealize external sources.
Love is whatever you can still betray;
Betrayal can only happen if you love.

Affairs are loaded with romanticism, morality, mythology and intense emotion.

Pay the price for your betrayal, to whom who betrayed.
Betrayals and affairs are now exciting games for me.
So, game on.