First second of Homesick

Time for boarding;

Waving goodbye to my love ones;

My heart weeped.

Once I walked into the boarding room;

I felt lonely.

Everyone around has companion;

Some with family;

Some with friends;

Some with spouse;

While I was all alone.

Announcement called for departure.

Time to leave my homeland.

Sitting next to me on the plane is a couple;

With their daughter - almost same age as TungTung.

It reminds of my lovely daughter :'(

I fell asleep right after meal.

I smiled in my dream;

I dreamed of my family.

I don't know why I woke up in tears.

Is this homesick?

I love window seat.

Fun to look at clouds and sea.

Somehow I fear to see the lights of KL.

Because it means arrival.

I stepped into the terminal.

I had an urge to buy a return ticket.

Too bad I don't have the courage to do so.

The fear of shamefulness stopped me.

I feel so alone.

I never had this feeling at home.

I miss home so much :'(

Can I go back for good?