I smile, but I ain't happy

I always seem to be happy and out-going, having no worries.

People envy, because they thought I can smile off everything.

But in fact, what have you seen isn't always what it really is.

I just don't wanna reveal the sad side of mine.

Because I fear to be left out.

I couldn't bear to be alone in the dark;

Sitting by the window, weep while I meditate.

I have the most vulnerable heart, due to long term camouflage.

I cried alone, wiped off my aggrieved tears and convinced myself:

"It's okay, I can do well."

Give me a smile, let me know that I'm not abandoned.