The First Love

First Love;

You'll never forget his/her name,
But you'll never wanna talk about him/her;
You'll never erase the memories,
But you hate that you still remember;
You'll never delete his/her contact number,
But you'll never call nor text;
You'll never greet him/her when you meet,
But your heart weeps after that;
You'll never hesitate to pass by his/her house,
But you'll never ring the doorbell;
You'll never tell how much you missed and loved him/her,
But you'll keep feeling sorry and regretful.

Somehow I still miss my first love.
I hope "what if" works.